Thursday, June 24, 2010

jasmine at 23 months

at this point in time, jasmine is 23 months and is a little chatterbox! she gets into alot of mischief too.
she knows when things are naughty, she will do something (draw on something she shouldnt, make a mess she knows she shouldnt, etc.), and then come find me to tell me..... "naughty naughty" and then she takes me too it.

shes currently into her kitchen and cooking, helping with anything. trucks, trains and cars.
wiggles and hi-5 are still favourites, as are the movie cars, brother bear and fluke!

she still sleeps once through the day. usually for 1.5 hours to 2 hours. occassionally with a 3 hour thrown in every now and then!

a word for when she has no idea

when jasmine doesnt know what something is, she has a made up word (i presume its made up, cos i have no idea what it could be!) that she uses.

so if you ask her what is this jazz? she will use the word.

and the word, i hear you ask??

"BUN-NA"

shes been using this word for ages. since at least the start of 2010 i think.

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Uncle corey and his 21st BBQ

on the 5th of june 2010, we went to coreys place to celebrate his 21st with a bbq lunch.
just a couple of pics from that day of you and your uncle "corwee"!


daddys new girlfriend

daddy has a new girlfriend. her name is jessica (you call her jess or "dess" is how you say it)
mummy got the chance to meet her for the first time at uncle coreys 21st party, and took the oppurtunity to take a photo of you, your daddy and jess for you to have at mummys house!


Quirky little thing...

jasmine has many quirks and catch phrases, and faces a plenty.

her are just a few i have caught for now!


mini picasso in the making!

this is the face she pulls when something is hilariously funny. in this case, it was "the bunyip" at the playground in murray bridge. although she hates being anywhere close to it, unless shes up with someone. but from far away its pretty funny apparently


so serious. comtemplating the angle of the slide!

aeroplane! she loves them. and flys around like one when she hears them in the sky.

when she wants you to follow her she pats her shin and says "Pum On" like she is calling one of the dogs!
you cant help but laugh at her!

shes so happy when she playing at the playground!

Best Friends!

jasmine has 2 best friends in her life at the moment, one is black and the other is tan!

KNUCKLES and ROXI!!!!!!



these 2 are alwasy around to help her, share her food, and play with her! a bond between the 3 of them that will never be broken.

roxi has been with jasmine since jazz was born. roxi is now 6 years old!
knuckles has only been around for about 8-12 months i think. i think they first met in september 09 from memory! they had a bit of a rough start, knuck would growl at jasmine, and he snapped at her once, but now, they are inseperable. she loves him to bits and he loves her too!

the three musketeers they are! getting into all kinds of mischief!
which generally involves jasmine asking for food to then feed to them.
she sits in their kennel and feeds them food!

Jasmine loves to help

jasmine loves to help with pretty much anything! washing, dishes, and making food etc.

so when it comes to making lunch, she is the expert!

cheese toasties are her favourite! :-)

watching the toast "cook"
"Look mum, I Help!"


Jasmine helping put the cheese on the sandwhiches!

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Coincidence or something spirital?....

i have always, since day dot, had a feeling that Grandma has had something to do with bringing jasmine to us!

the feeling got so much stronger when i found out she was a girl, as that meant she would have Grandmas name as her middle name!

what am i talking about?
ill try to explain...

grandma was born on the 12th of august, jasmine original due date was 12th of july
grandma died on the 8th of july 2000, jasmine was born on the 19th of july 2008, so 8 years later.
grandma was also buried on the 12th of july 2000, which was jasmines original due date.
one of grandma and my favourite numbers to play on keno was the number 9! jasmine was born 9lb 12oz!

it took us 3-4 months to concieve jasmine, but only 3 days to conceive baby number 2, so its not like we should of had trouble the first time.

at grandmas house, on the side of the house, taking over, is a jasmine plant, which i didnt know about until a few months ago!

so.... what do you think? did grandma help bring jasmine to us? or is it all just crazy coincidental?

last i looked i wasnt a dog

jasmines new thing at the moment is to tell us to follow her.
which she does by calling "pum on" (come on) and bending down and patting her shin like you would call a dog!

must try to get a photo of this, its hilarious!

19th june 2010

Friday, June 18, 2010

Vocabulary at 19 months old

before her vocabulary starts booming and we lose count of the words, i thought id write a list of the words she says at 19 months!
these days, there is too many to count, and she parrots everything. but here is the list we made on the 25th of Feburary, 2010!

  1. Mum/Mum mee
  2. Dad/ Dad dee
  3. Up
  4. Off
  5. Nana
  6. 'ot (hot)
  7. dog
  8. 'oxi (roxi)
  9. Nuck (knuckles)
  10. Hi
  11. Bub bye
  12. Whas in dere? (whats in there)
  13. More
  14. No
  15. Yeah
  16. Cat
  17. Smial (smile, usually said when holding something like a camera or mu phone)
  18. sgish (squish)
  19. Whats that
  20. Look
  21. Jump
  22. shwing (swing)
  23. Narna (banana)
  24. Bwyce (bryce)
  25. Lily
  26. Watch
  27. Shouw a (shower)
  28. five (hi-5)
  29. Fly
  30. Bird
  31. Ta
  32. Uh-Oh
  33. Oh-No
  34. Stay
  35. Pool
  36. Bubble
  37. Rock
  38. Knock Knock
  39. Car
  40. Pooh Pooh

all her J's sound like D's though.

The Sudocreme Incident

ahhh, i remember that fateful day on the 27th of november 2009 very very well.
twas the day that jasmine seemed a little unwell/unusually tired, so i sat her down to watch one of her dvds on her little couch and i went to the kitchen table to hop on the net for a bit.
now, with the way our lounge/dining was positioned, i couldnt see jasmine as she was infront of the couch and i was behind it. she was very quiet, and i couldnt hear any movement at all, i actually assumed she had fallen asleep. after 20 minutes or so, i got up to check on her, ready to move her to her bed if i needed to, and this is what i found....................




cheeky little monkey was very proud of herself. lucky little shit too, its was too funny to really tell her off!

seperation...

since the seperation in january, jasmine has been coping reasonably well. to start with mike was having her friday nights (anywhere from 6-7pm depending on work) and bringing her home by 5:30pm on a sunday.

after a few weeks of this i didnt think it was working well with jazz, as she was coming home and was very grumpy and out of sorts for the next days and a half or so.
so i chatted to mike and since he couldnt get off work any earlier to pick her up in time to take her to his place for tea, we agreed to change it to 9am on a saturday morning to 5 pm sunday nights instead.

since that change, things have been great. shes coming home happy, shes no longer grumpy the next day. she seems much happier.

one thing we have realised is that her routine is important to her, and when things arent the same, she freaks out.
we had coreys 21st birthday bbq on the 5th of june, which was jasmines weekend with me. although corey had invited mike to the party as well. this in itself was fine, i had no dramas what so ever. actually thought it would be great for jazz to see her dad!
which it was. she was happy to see him and play with him and all were having fun. until it came time for him to leave and go home. under usual circumstances, the only times jazz sees mike are when she is going to stay with him, which means she goes with him, but this time he was leaving without her.
the poor kid screamed and cried for him asking and pointing at him "up, up, daddy, up".
he left before things got worse and i took her inside to try to tell her, she will see daddy next weekend. it took her 20 or so minutes to fully calm down.
but the whole of the next week, she woke crying/screaming and hysterical through the night, not just once, but numerous times. and was constantly asking for daddy, nana and kiedis. and was hunting out my photo albums and taking photos of mike and mary out and walking around with them, taking them everywhere.

she was very clingy, sooky, unusually naughty and just completely out of sorts.

moral of the story: i dont think she should see mike unless he is willing to take her on his own for a little bit. unless the mini visit was to become a regular thing.

swimming certificate

while we were still living in mount barker, we were doing swimming lessons at the local state swim pool.

well on the 23rd april, 2010, jasmine recieved her first ever certificate for "climbing out of the pool unaided"

i was such a proud mum that day!

Washing liquid

jasmine found the old supposedly empty bottle of washing liquid in the laundry and decided it would be fun to open it and pour it on my bed.
when i found her, i took it off her, told her off, and put her in her room.
after i cleaned it up, i went back to get her, told her it was naughty and that you dont do that, so she continued to point saying "naughty".

she would later walk past my room, walk in there and point and declare "naughty" over and over!

"Luff Foo"

too cute for words. but jasmine now says love you back when you say it too her! "Luff Foo"

and also "bless You" when anyone sneezes or coughs.

"mum mums"

at the start of april Jasmine went to stay with my mum for a few days to give a bit of break.
of course at the age of 21 months, a young toddler will follow you everywhere, so naturally when mum went into her room to get dressed, jasmine was right behind her.
as mum opened her draws and cupboards Jazz starts pulling some random clothes out, funnily enough they are the items of clothing that mum and i have the same of.
so she pulls them out looks at mum telling her "mum mum's", mum trys to tell her "no, these are grandmas clothes" to which jazz replys very sternly "NO, Mum Mums". after going back and forth a bit, mum gave in and they ended up taking the clothes with them to visit a friend as jasmine wouldnt allow mum to put them back! LOL

Jasmines Firsts

  • first smile - 9.8.08
  • first laugh - 5.10.08 - dancing with mummy to hannah montanna's song "nobodys perfect"
  • first recognised mummy and daddy - around 3-4 weeks old
  • first held my head up - around 2 months old
  • first rolled over front to back - 23-10-08
  • first rolled over back to front - 19-12-08
  • first sat up (semi-assisted) - 5.5 months
  • first sat up (all on your own) - 6 months and 1 week
  • first crawled - 26th feburary 2009, 7 months and 1 week
  • first stood up (pulled yourself up) - 28.2.09
  • first stood up (all on your own) - 12.5 months old
  • first steps - 22nd july 2009, you took 3 steps away from mummy
  • first walked - 12.5 months old
  • fully walking by 13 months
  • first solid food - 26.10.08, rice cereal
  • first used a spoon - 14 months old
  • first drank from a cup - sippy cup, 5 months - straw cup, 8 months - open cup, 20 months old
  • first bath - july 22nd 08 in hospital.
  • first time in a big bath on your own - 30.8.08, 6 weeks old
  • first slept through the night - 15.9.08 @ 8 weeks and 2 days
  • first slept in a cot - 30.8.08 @ 6 weeks old
  • started sleeping through regularly @ 12 weeks old

Origin of your name

once we found out you were a little girl, i decided i wanted to name you already so that we could refer to you with your name.
after a talk with daddy, we discovered i wanted a name that wasnt heard very often, and daddy wanted something normal, and not too out there with normal spelling.

your middle name 'Pamela' comes from your Great Grandma Pamela Yvonne Gardiner who died in 2000, from cancer. ever since she died, mummy has had her heart set on using Pamela as a middle name for her first daughter.

one night i sat down with a baby book, and wrote down the names i liked. then in the ads of the tv show daddy was watching, i would read them to him and he would say yes or no as to weather he liked them or not.

we got it down to a list of a few names. jamie, chloe, hayley and jasmine were the last names we could agree on.

i then wrote all these names down with the mixture of middle names (we were deciding weather you would have 1 or 2 middle names), and i handed the book to daddy again.
he looked at them, and circled one, wrote something next to it and handed it back to me.

he had circled "Jasmine Pamela", and wrote 'now leave me alone'! :-)

and this my girl, is how you were named!

we did have a few boys names we liked in case you were a boy. some of these included: lucas, jamie, riley and nathaniel.

the origin of your name is 'persian' and the meaning is 'Jasmine flower, A gift from God'.

Thursday, June 17, 2010

letter to jasmine - 5th april 2010

Monday 5th April, 2010



good evening my beautiful girl,

it has been so long since i last wrote. And for that i am very sorry. I have been slack, but will see if i can keep it up now.

Anyways, lots has happened since last time, you turned 1 and had a big party. You started walking 3 days after your birthday and havnt slowed down since!

And the biggest thing is that your daddy and i split up on the 11th of January 2010, and he moved out on the 17th of January.

First and foremost baby girl, it was not your fault in the slightest. Daddy and i grew apart, and we both wanted different things, and realised we would be happier people, and better parents if we weren’t together.

We both love you so very much sweetheart. Don’t ever forget that.

At the moment, daddy and i are about to go through mediation to sort out when he sees you. I am making that phonecall tomorrow.



In general, you don’t seem to be coping to badly with it all. Though you do have your hard times. You have started waking through the night crying when you come back, and are pretty clingy and unsettled the day after you come back too. I feel terrible, because you cant yet tell me how you are feeling so i can help you, so for now, i just have to guess.



You are currently enrolled in swimming lessons. We go every Friday at 10:30am to the stateswim centre at mount barker! You love the water and love swimming, but are funny about doing lessons. Im not sure if its because you HAVE to do things or if its the fact theres other people around, but you are learning everything so well.

You are also doing kindergym on Wednesdays at 10:30am too! Which you love. Last session, you loved the kitchen stuff with the pretend cupcakes, cookies and oven!



You are 20 and a half months at the moment, and are talking so much. Mostly single words, but you are saying alot! Some favourites at the moment are

• “shaa up” shut up – usually said to the dogs when they bark

• “corwee” corey, “tarya” talia

• You do swear and say the F and S word.... although not a good thing, it is kinda cute and a little funny!



I will come back and write out the list we had of words you were saying at 19 months soon, just for a record. Your speech has exploded in the last month though!



You love planes at the moment, and love to put your arms out and fly around. Also dinosaurs are a favourite. You roar at everything!

Your favourite dvds and characters are Hi-5, the wiggles and in the night garden. You love upsy daisy from in the night garden.



You love your trampoline (you have a full sized one with a net), and your slide and swing! You spend alot of time in your sandpit too, and love to bring sand and rocks into the house, tip them on the floor, then tell me “oh no” when i find it! Cheeky girl you are!



Anyway gorgeous girl, i better head to bed

I promise to come back and write soon though and update you with more of your cheekiness!

Love you forever and always princess, and don’t ever forget it!

Love mum XXXXOOOO

letter to jasmine - 26th feburary 2009

Thursday 26th February, 2009




Hi Princess,

Once again you are sleeping in your room. You have had a big few weeks and are still attempting to catch up on your sleep, as are me and daddy!

Your exzema has cleared up now since we started using QV flare up bath oil, and QV moisturiser on you. It has been clear for over a month now, which makes us all alot happier, especially you!

You now have 2 teeth!!!!! Your first one came through on January 25th and the second while we on holiday on the 12th of February! You did very well with them, although you were grizzly and wanted mummy alot, you didn’t seem too bothered. Just wanted me or to be held and cuddled most of time. But that was ok. The only other sign, other than you being grumpy and clingy, that we get is that you rub your head with right hand and pull at you left ear. When you start doing that we know that another tooth is on its way!

You had your first ride in an aeroplane this month when we went to visit grandpa tony and grandma jo! You did very well on the plane of the way up there, you played a bit, slept a bit, and was quite happy. But on the way back, you did not want to sit still. You barely slept, you wanted to touch the guy sitting next to us. You were just crazy.

While is Queensland we seen uncle pete, auntie leonie, lauren and evan, brooke, and sarah. And your great grandpa ken came up to visit too. We went to the beach at Redcliffe, the beach at southbank with lauren, and to underwater world.

You loved it at underwater world when we went through the aquarium that goes over the top of you! You were looking around at all the fish, stingrays and sharks, you were just in awe of everything! We took lots of photos too, so even though you cant remember any of it, i can show you the photos from your first holiday!

We might be going to Alice Springs in april to see G-ma and uncle corey and auntie bec for G-ma’s 40th birthday! She is so excited that we might be coming up. Mummy is busy trying to do a dvd for her, but it is going to take a while. Lots of photos to scan in, and things to work out! But hopefully she will like it!

You are so close to crawling, you just need to work out how to move your arms, and you will be off!

Your first birthday is getting closer and closer all the time, but we still aretn sure how to celebrate it or what to get you! Daddy thinks maybe a trampoline, but we will see what happens!

You are still sleeping well, but now going to bed at 8:00pm and not waking till 7:30-8:00am!

You now get fed up of being in the pusher too much, so i have to get you out sometimes so you can have a roll around and get rid of some energy!

We went to the movies today with some friends, we saw “ghost town”! you were very good! But i knew you would be, you have been to 2 movies already! You saw “Walle” first when you were quite young, and then we saw “high school musical 3” a couple of months later!

There isn’t much more to tell for now, so i best be off.

But i will hopefully write again soon

Lots of love, mummy XOXOXO

letter to jasmine - 5th january 2009

Monday 5th January, 2009




Hello My Angel,

You are sleeping soundly once again, while i should be doing some dishes and working out your food and cooking some up. Nana bev is coming to look after you today for an hour and a half or so, so i can go to my appointment. Im not supposed to take you, because you will distract me from talking to the doctor and that would make the appointment pointless, and since nana and auntie nikki are busy, nana bev is taking some time off work to come play and look after you!



We have had a few days in the past week. On Monday (29th) we went to the park at the aquatic centre to have a meet with the maternal ladies and the kids.

On Thursday (1st) we went to Glenelg with daddy and met up with neej and addisyn, tiff and her mum, and june and chloe. We went to a park, where you went on the swings and slide with june. We played in the water fountains, but you weren’t that big a fan of them, but im sure you will be one day.



On Saturday (3rd) you and i went to Glenelg again to meet up with neej and addisyn. This time we went down to the beach, where you stood in the water, but wasn’t really sure what to do about it. We walked around and you and addi had a sleep while mummy and neej talked. When neej and addi left, we were going to get back ont he next tram and head straight home, but i decided to take you back down to the beach, to have a play in the sand. Which you loved by the way. You were just sitting there (i hav dug out a little hole and built up some sand sides around you so you couldn’t fall over), playing with your feet through the sand, and playing with the sand. You have so much fun.

When we finally got home, we sat on the front lawn with daddy and roxi and daddy took a heap of photos of me and you together. I don’t have many cos i am always behind the camera, but i was so glad daddy did that for me.



On Sunday (4th) we went with daddy for a drive to Junes house to help her fix her gate and put up chloes trampolione. On the way home we went to nana and grand-dads to say hello, and you got lots of cuddles from nana.



These days you are really starting to roll around and move around. No crawling yet, but i have a feeling it wont be far away. You can be pretty determined when you want something. You are trying to get your legs up and moving and so far i have seen you once get up on your hands and tiptoes, so you are definitely getting there.

You are loving your food. And are now having 3 meals a day. Sometimes you eat lots and other times not much. You tried mango yesterday, but you weren’t too sure, so i will get nana to give you some more today for lunch and see how you go.



You have alot of eczema at the moment and nothing seems to make it get any better, it gets alot worse when it is hot though. I am going to book you into thte doctors this week on my way to my appointment. Hopefully they can give us something to help it and make you a bit more comfortable.

There is still no sign of any teeth, but you are chewing on anything and everything, and your gums are hardening, so thats a good sign.

You are sleeping very well at night all the time, you go to bed between 8:30pm and 9:00pm, and you wake between 7:30am and 8:00am.

You sleep during the day very well too, not in big blocks like you probly should, but you have a few little sleeps, which keeps you going.



Anyway angel, i better go and start doing something about making your food.

Love you lots, and until next time, always remember........

I love you forever and ever

Love mummy

letter to jasmine - 28th december 2008

Sunday 28th December, 2008


As i type this, you are in your cot, supposed to be going to sleep, i can hear you talking to yourself though, so i know you are ok.

Well, as you may have guessed by the date we have just celebrated your first Christmas. It was a great day, and the weather was nice and warm. (around 32 degrees)

You have been very lucky and rather spoilt this Christmas. We had an early Christmas day for you while your G-ma was down, because she couldn’t be here for Christmas day, so we opened alot of your presents on Saturday night, the 13th of December, once G-ma got here.

While G-ma was here, we took you to see the lights of Lobethal, although you weren’t very happy (i have a feeling your teeth are giving you trouble), so you slept most of the time in the sling.

On Christmas morning, you slept till almost 10am! (im sure that wont last long, once you work out what Christmas is all about) when you got up, you had a bottle, and then you and i went and had a shower. When we got out, you have breakfast and then you went down for a nap.

I got daddy out of bed while you were sleeping and i got everything organised that we would need for the day. When you woke up, we got you dressed and jumped in the car and headed down to Gran-nan and Poppas house for lunch.

We left Gran-nan and Poppas around 7pm, and headed back up to Auntie Nikki and Uncle Bj’s house for tea. We ended up getting home around midnight or so.

It has been a very busy week this week with alot of late nights, so now you are all out of whack, and sleeping longer in the mornings, going to bed later, so we have been staying home for a few days, to try and get you back into your routine.



You have been giving mummy and daddy a heart attack a few times int he past 2 weeks. Your monitor alarm has gone off 4 times now. The one that tells us when you have stopped breathing. The first time was 2:30 in the morning. The second at 5:30 in the afternoon, and then 2 times yesterday suring the day. The first 2 times in happened, when we got into your room, you were stirring and rubbing your eyes, but the 2 times yesterday, you were crying before we got into your room. We aren’t sure yet if you are actually stopping breathing or if there is something wrong with the way the monitor is set up. I have moved the sensor pad now, to the middle of the cot, because you have started moving around.



You are now rolling around on the floor and can roll from your back to your tummy and occasionally you can roll yourself back, but you are getting better and better at that every day! It wont be long and you will be into everything im sure. You can also move yourself backwards on your back, which is quite funny to watch.



We have started you on solids again now, and i am thinking i might try to get you to start drinking from a cup. Im not sure if it will be water or maybe your afternoon milk drink. Will see how we go, but i might try something today.

You can now hold your bottle yourself too, so it means you are feeding yourself. It makes things a little easier on mummy if i need to go somewhere quickly or something, but i am always around to help you if you drop the bottle or if you need help. I don’t ever go too far.

Anyway, my beautiful girl, i better go for now, but will write again soon.

Love you forever and always....

letter to jasmine - 22nd december 2008

Monday 22nd December, 2008


Today i am sitting in the house on my own, waiting for your nana to come pick me up. I am on my own, because you are at auntie Nikkis house for the day. Mummy had an appointment to go to today and wasn’t allowed to take you, and since nana was busy, auntie nikki said she would love to have you for the day. So she picked you up this morning and took you to her house, so you could play with all the kids. Im missing you so much, although im sure you have barely noticed i am not there, you would be having too much fun. Tonight i am taking you to the woodside pageant. Im hoping you will enjoy it! Hopefully you don’t get hit in the head with any lollies ! (they throw lollies fromt he floats!) we may even see santa. I cant wait to see you and give you a cuddle, and i know it wont be long now. Love you my angel!

letter to jasmine - 8th december 2008

8th December, 2008


To my beautiful daughter,



You came into the world on Saturday, the 19th of July 2008 at 11:17pm.



On that day and in that single moment, my whole world changed.



I have to admit, I did not feel the love for you straight away that everyone talks about when they first see their newborn baby. I think in that moment I was scared, excited, nervous, and worried about the future and how things were going to be. How was I going to be as a mother? How was mike going to be as a father? Would we be able to cope?



You need to know that it did not take long after I was feeling better that I did fall so in love with you. The feelings that came over me that on the morning of the 22nd, I just cannot explain them. I felt an instant bond, and knew there and them, that you were my daughter. MY DAUGHTER! Not someone else’s baby that I was having a cuddle with. You were mine. I couldn’t get over it, and when I think back now, or look at your birth photos, tears come to my eyes every time, the emotions are so powerful. One day, when you have your own little baby in your arms, you will understand all this. I never did until the day you were born.



I was sick for the first 12-14 weeks of my pregnancy, so I did not enjoy it much, and I ended up losing a bit of weight, because I just couldn’t eat. But once the sickness was gone, I started getting excited again. I was always out buying things for you. I didn’t know at that stage weather you would be a boy or a girl, but I just couldn’t help buying things.

The first time I felt you move, I was lying in G-ma's bus in Darwin, about to go to sleep, when something told me to put my hand on my stomach and push a little firmly. Very lightly against my hand I felt a little bump. And then you did it again, and again. And then you stopped. I was so excited, but still wasn’t sure if it really you, or if I was imagining it.

After that night, G-ma and I were driving back to mount barker, but we had a few stops along the way. We stopped in tenant creek for the night. I found myself lying awake for over an hour feeling you move. You were moving more and more every day. It was only very lightly, and only when it was quiet, but I loved it so much. I talked to you all the time.



A few weeks later, when you were starting to kick harder, daddy felt you kick. His whole face lit up, he was so excited and happy. He called out to G-ma and told her (she really wanted to feel you too), and she came running. She put her hand on my belly, and you stopped and wouldn’t give her any kicks. We all thought that was funny.



As time went on you got stronger and bigger. It became a night time thing, for me to lie on the ground with my belly out, and we could actually watch you moving and kicking! Everyone loved it. Lots of people saw it!



The day we had our 20 week scan, I was so excited. And a little bit nervous. Today was the day we got to find out whether you were a boy or a girl. But it was also the day that if there was anything wrong with you, we would find that out too. (That’s why I was nervous)

Your G-ma and nana were in there with me. Daddy had to work and couldn’t make it, but I rang him as soon as I got out! When they asked if I wanted to know what you were, I don’t think I could have said yes quickly enough. The sonographer said “It's a girl” so quietly, I thought I had misheard her.

I could not believe I was actually going to get my little girl. The little girl I had always wanted.

When I got outside, the first thing I did, was ring your dad. He was over the moon to hear he was getting his little princess. We just could not believe how lucky we were.

After I rang daddy, I walked over and told G-ma and nana too. They were both so happy and gave me a big hug.

After that day, all the girly things and pink clothes started coming in all the time. Auntie Nikki gave us heaps and heaps of clothes that were handed down from Tamika.



As you got bigger and stronger, I got bigger too. You were 26 weeks old when daddy and I got married at Lenswood at The Daylily Garden. When we were saying our vows to each other, you were kicking me. I like to think you were kicking in agreement, and just letting us know you were there.



I got bigger each day, and as the days went by, I got bigger and bigger, more and more uncomfortable and more impatient every day. I just could not wait to meet you!
I had a photo shoot when you were 38 weeks, to show off my belly, and my beautiful baby growing inside me.

When I wore clothes though, you couldn’t really even tell I was pregnant.
And then, on the morning of the 19th of July, (which was your due date), you decided it was time to make your grand appearance......

The first few weeks after you were born were quite hard. Im am so greatful that G-Ma was able to stay and help me. I was very sore and could not sit for very long, it was hard to get up quickly, and uncomfortable. G-ma helped me by getting you up when you needed a feed, changing your nappy for me, and letting me sleep if i needed to.


The very first night we were home, you did not want to go to sleep at all, and i was so tired, G-ma got up and bought you out to the lounge room so me and daddy could get some sleep. I got about 4 hours, but felt alot better after that. You, me and G-ma all slept in the lounge room for the first week and a half or so. Just because it was warmer and easier to get you up, and then we didn’t disturb daddy. At the time i didn’t know how i was ever going to get through it all, but now as i type this, i don’t know what my problem was. Looking back it all seemed so easy, but believe me kiddo, it really isn’t that easy. I can only say that because that time is over now. It is definitely not easy.

A Princess is Born!

And after much anticipation.... our little princess arrives into the world!

FRIDAY 18th JULY


To get me out of the house for a while nana came and picked me up and we went to the super play café with Kiedis and Bryce. We were there for a couple of hours, when I started getting uncomfortable, and my lower back was really hurting. I moved around on my chair and tried many different positions to try and stay comfortable, which seemed to work. At this stage I wasn’t thinking it meant anything, I just thought I had been sitting on a chair for too long.

Nana dropped me home when we had finished at super play, and since I was still feeling the back pain, I grabbed my pillow and blanket, and my heat bag, and lied on the mattress I had in the lounge room, with the heat bag on my back. It helped a little bit, but the pain was still there. I took 2 panadol, and lied down again, with the heat bag again, and after a while it seemed to go away. I managed to get to sleep okay, so I went to bed around 11pm.

SATURDAY 19th JULY

Today is my due date!!!

I woke up at 5:30am, feeling like I needed to go to the toilet (yet again!!), as I tried to get out of bed (which has proved hard for months now, as the surround on our bed is higher than our mattress, so I have always had to kind of rock to get upright), I felt a release of pressure and heard a pop and then it felt like I had wet myself. I managed to get out of bed, and as I stood up the fluid just kept coming, so I squatted beside the bed, and pulled my towel down from the end of the bed and put it under me, while I called to mike and woke him up.

He woke up asking what was wrong (he actually thought I was throwing up, he said later, that’s what it sounded like), and I said “my waters have broken”, and he jumped out of bed so quick, (I’ve never seen him move so quick), asking what to do.

I told him to go wake G-ma up, who was in the next bedroom, so he went and knocked on her door, and said “Jess’s waters have broken”, and then G-ma jumped out of bed fairly quick too. They both then came back into the bedroom, by this time the water had stopped flowing like it was, but it was still leaking out. G-ma got me a towel which I used to stop the leaking while I made my way to the bathroom, to have a shower and clean up.

I hopped in the shower, while mike went back to bed, as he had to work in the morning for half the day. While I was in the shower, G-ma rang the hospital, to let them know what was going on. They asked if contractions had started yet, what colour the water was, etc. they said to have some breakfast, and then make our way in when we were ready.

6:50am – Contractions started now and are coming every 3-8 minutes, and lasting 30-60 seconds each. They aren’t consistent at all, and are a little painful, but they are bearable, I can still do everything normally, and happily. Before we headed into hospital, we took a last ever belly photo too. Mike headed off to work at 8am, after checking and double checking that I was ok and that it was ok for him to go.


last ever belly pic - 8:16am - 19th july 2008

9:00am – G-ma and I headed to the hospital, and I was admitted. We sat in the waiting room for a little bit, before the midwife (Anthea) came down to see us. She took my blood pressure, and asked a few questions, and then took us to our room.

I was hooked up to the CTG machine to monitor the contractions and your heart rate. The contractions are still irregular, but you were coping well with them. Your heart rate didn’t change much, if at all.

Anthea then attempted to do a specula exam, but it was too painful (it made me cry), so she did an internal. This made me cry more, as it hurt quite a bit, because my cervix was a fair way back. I am 1-2 cms dilated, and 1cm long, but it is thinning.

10:30am – we had the option to stay at the hospital or go home for a while, and since we only live 2 minutes from the hospital, we decided to go home, and get some breakfast, and get some things together to head back in when mike got home from work. On the way home we stopped in at the shopping centre to pick up some bits and pieces for the day, and then headed home.

When we got home, I hopped back in the shower, as the contractions were getting a bit stronger. Mike came home soon after that, and he ended up getting in the shower with me. He was massaging my back, and talking to me, and keeping my mind of things. While in there, we discovered that I couldn’t stand being touched on my lower back while having a contraction, as this was where all my pain was.

When we got out of the shower, mike made a sign that said “contraction happening, don’t touch me, where it hurts” for me to hold up when I was having a contraction.

We then got our stuff organized and packed up the car and headed back to the hospital.



12:00pm – we arrived back at the hospital, and headed straight to our room. I tried sitting on an exercise ball with a wheat bag on my back, but it didn’t do a lot, and I soon gave up the wheat bag. The pain in my back is 10 times worse than any pain in my stomach, which I don’t actually think there is any.

2:00pm – the midwives encouraged me to get up and walk around a bit. So we went for a walk outside, so G-ma could have a smoke. When I was having a contraction, I would lean into mike, and he would just hold me. In between, I was walking around in circles, talking to G-ma and mike.

2:30pm – I decided to get in the shower again, as the pain was slowly getting worse. Contractions are now around 5 minutes apart. I was kneeling on the floor of the shower on towels, and leaning into a chair. I had the water running onto my back, until I was having a contraction, and then it was unbearable, I had to move out of the water each time.



3:30pm – the shower wasn’t helping anymore, so I got out and hopped on the bed. Lying down was great, only because I got to lie down and sort of rest in between contractions, but the pain was still the same.

4:00pm – they tell me you are not in the right position, your back is against my left side, and you need to have your back against my front, and you also need to move your head. I am now sitting on the exercise ball again, moving my pelvis around in circles, trying to encourage you to move around. Mike is sitting on a chair in front of me, so I am leaning into him while having a contraction. He is breathing with me and talking to me, and praising me.

4:20pm – I had another gush of my waters, when I got up off the ball to go to the toilet. Our new midwife Ana, tried massaging my back for me, but I'm not sure if I like it enough for her to keep doing it.

4:40pm – my labour is now established! Woo hoo!!!!

5:40pm – I’m still sitting and swaying on the exercise ball, as the contractions are getting stronger and closer together. Ana says that I will have another internal done around 7:30 – 8:00pm, as requested by Dr Klomp.

6:00pm – by now I am getting sick of the ball and think I might like a change of scenery and to try something different. So I ask to try the bath. There are consent forms to sign first, so we get them out of the way, and the Ana goes and runs the bath for me. While Ana is out of the room, mum goes out there too, and tells Ana that I am getting short tempered while she (Ana) is not in the room, so I receive one on one support from Ana from this point onwards.

6:15pm – I walked up and down the maternity ward hallway twice with Ana and mike, before getting into the bath at 6:50pm. (Thankfully, I am the only person in the ward at this time)

7:15pm – some contractions are starting to get very painful and overwhelming, so I decide to ask for the gas.



7:18pm – it doesn’t feel like the gas is doing much, so it is turned up.

7:25pm – the gas is turned up again.

7:40pm – I hopped out of the bath and was lying on a mattress that had been set up in the bathroom for another internal. Your head is at Station O, my cervix is thin and stretchy, and I am 7 cm dilated. YAY!!!! My Mucousy/bloody show is seen now, and they tell me things are getting closer, and that we should look at moving down to the delivery suite soon.

8:20pm – after lying on the mattress for a while I got back in the bath for a bit.

8:35pm – I am starting to feel pressure now, like I need to do a poo, at the peak of my contractions. Ana is now telling me that I should get out of the bath, as we need to move down to the delivery suite. I had to walk down to the delivery suite, and had to walk past nana Bev and Popa John, who were sitting in the waiting room.

9:00pm – I am now comfortably settled in the delivery suite now, and still using the gas. (Although I swear the gas wasn’t working or turned on in the bathroom, because I am actually smiling while using it now). Ana or mike are massaging my back while I am kneeling on my knees and leaning over the bar in front of me. I was using some funky looking contraption.



9:20pm – I’m starting to feel a lot of pressure now, but they say that I am not bearing down yet. Another internal is done, and they say your head has descended, and then those sweet words, I AM FULLY DILATED!!!! YEAH!!!! More bloody show is seen.

I start to feel my body pushing in some of the contractions now. It is the weirdest feeling ever, because it is not something that I can control. It’s like when you are straining to push out a poo, and your whole tummy tightens and tenses up, except that you can’t stop it from happening.

10:00pm – I moved onto the bed, and was sitting upright, holding on to the handles. Ana has said that I should stop using the gas now, as it will help move things along a bit quicker without it, so reluctantly, I let it go.

10:15pm – I am now in a semi-squat position being supported by mike and Ana. I have now started effective pushing. Every now and then Ana comes round and shines a torch up my Vagina to have a look. With every push, she says she can see more and more of the head. First thing mike asks “does she have red hair?” (Daddy was adamant he didn’t want you to have red hair!)



10:47pm – Dr Klomp shows up. I continue pushing with every contraction. They are still looking at things with a torch, and G-ma’s face is just priceless, she can’t believe what she is seeing. Thankfully she took photos of it all, so I have been able to look back at them and see what she saw. Mike has spent the whole time up by my head, holding my hand when he wasn’t supporting me.




11:17pm – Jasmine Pamela is born (while I was in the semi squat position, supported by mike on one side and another midwife, Monika on the other) and lifted straight onto my chest. You didn’t breathe straight away, but after what seemed like forever, but was probly only 1 minute or so, you started coughing, then breathing, then crying. It was the biggest relief to hear you cry. G-ma cut your umbilical cord, and I got to cut it closer a bit later.




I had to have an episiotomy done, as my perineum just was not stretching enough to let you out. I remember the OB saying, we are going to have to cut you to get her out, is that ok? And my response? “I don’t care anymore, just get her out!!

I didn’t even feel the anaesthetic needle going in, everything was stretched so much, and I think I lost all feeling down there.

Mike and G-ma both said that it sounded horrible when he cut, that it was like cutting through really tough rubber, and that the sound was horrible.

You were left on my chest while I birthed the placenta, which only took 10 minutes. I was given the oxytocin injection in my leg (which I also didn’t feel) to help deliver the placenta. I was then stitched up by Dr Klomp. I never asked how many stitches I needed, but in the photos, the cut goes all the way to my butt hole. OUCH!!!



Once I was stitched up Nana Bev and Popa John were invited in to meet their new great granddaughter. They were the first people to see you!



All in all, my total established labour was 7.27 hours, with 1.17 hours of pushing.

Total labour from when my waters broke was 17.47 hours. I’m told that’s not bad for a first baby.

When you finally taken away and weighed we were extremely surprised to find out that you weighed 9lb 12oz (4.410kgs). No wonder you had trouble coming out.





This is when things turned a bit ugly, I wasn’t feeling the greatest after they took you, and asked if I could have a shower before I tried to feed you, which they said was fine. They sat me up on the edge of the bed, as they were getting the wheelchair ready, and the next thing I remember is G-ma standing over me, holding you and calling my name. Apparently I fainted, I hadn’t even tried to stand up, and I was just sitting on the edge of the bed.




Anyway, they lied me back down, and gave me an oxygen mask, which helped, but I still felt extremely crappy. They phoned Dr Klomp, and he said to put in a drip to re-hydrate me, which they did. I then tried to eat a bit of toast, and Monika gave me a quick sponge bath. They asked if I felt I could sit up to get in the wheel chair, but I didn’t have a hope in hell, so they went to my room and got my bed, and moved me onto that. And then wheeled me down to my room.



I finally fed you for the first time at 4:00am

Dr Klomp came back the next day to check on me, and was not at all happy with my colour; I was still very pale and white.

He ended up deciding that I needed to have a blood transfusion, so 3 units of blood were ordered, and that night I was given 2 of them. The next day after that (Monday) I was feeling a lot better, and could actually get out of bed now without support. I even managed to walk around the hospital a bit.



We were discharged on Tuesday afternoon, as Dr Klomp was happy enough that I was up and moving around on my own.



Your Birth Statistics Were:

Name: Jasmine Pamela Smits

D.O.B: 19th July, 2008

Time: 11:17pm

Weight: 9lb 12oz (4.410kgs)

Head circumference: 36.5 cms

Length: 53 cms

Apgar score: 9 @ 1minute, 9 @ 5minutes


our midwife who delivered you - Ana

baby shower

we had a baby shower on june 8th, 2008 at my house in mount barker when i was 34 weeks.
my mum hosted it and everyone bought a plate of food to share and we just had a shared lunch.

another last thing that happened while i was pregnant. i burnt my big belly on the steam from the frying pan while cooking tea. it is ever so slightly still there 2 years later as i type this!


Pregnancy photoshoot

26th june 2008
today i had a photoshoot with my girlfriend kathryn philcox. to capture a few moment of me and my big belly. these are a couple of my favourites.


Pregnancy Milestones

we discovered we were pregnant on november 8th, 2007 via a hometest
the doctor confirmed it on november 9th, 2007

our first appointment with our Obstetrician was on the 11th of decmeber, 2007
we first saw your little heart beating on december 11th, 2007
mummy first felt you move on 12th feburary, 2008
daddy first felt you move on 25th feburary, 2008
we saw you move on the outside for the first time sometime in march 2008

morning sickness started around 6 weeks and didnt dissappear until 14-15 weeks. i never actually got to vomiting, but i suffered all day nausea, tired as hell, and just generally feeling crappy.

i strated to get a bump around 20 weeks and people finally started noticing around 28 weeks/6 months.

we did ante-natal classes on monday nights from 5-5-08 to 26-5-08
you liked to kick mummy in the bladder and you liked to sit on the bottom left of my belly or the top right!

Mummys weight while pregnant!
6 weeks - 75kgs
12 weeks - 69kgs
18 weeks - 75kgs
28 weeks - 78kgs
33 weeks - 80kgs
38 weeks - 81kgs
1 week post birth - 71kgs (27-7-08)

Mummys Belly measurements!
5th march 08 - 101cms
17th march 08 - 104cms
28th march 08 - 106.5cms
22nd april 08 - 110.5cms
6th june 08 - 111cms

PHOTOS:




20 week ultrasound

5th March 2008

we finally get to have our 20 week scan. mary and my mum came with me to the appointment!
everything looks great and fine, though they still think "bean" is measuring a little bit small.
today we found out we are expecting a little GIRL!!! i am absolutely over the moon!
i so very much wanted a little girl. a daughter. i couldnt believe it was real.

i called mike at work and told him he was getting his princess and he was so happy and excited too!

our little "Spawn"!

Second Ultrasound

20th february 2008.

today was supposed to be  my 20 week scan, and the day they would tell us what we were having.
when we went in, they had a bit of a look around and then called another sonographer in to talk. i kind of freaked out, thinking there was something wrong. but we were told that 'bean' was too small and was measuring less that 18 weeks, so they would not be able to do the scan properly and that i would have to come back in 2 weeks.

i was absolutely devestated, and started crying, as i had been waiting and hanging for this day, and they wouldnt even have a look to try and see if they could tell what 'bean' was. just said i had to wait tillt hey could get a clearer picture.
i wasnt impressed at all.

first ultrasound

January 3rd, 2008
today was our first ultrasound. i am rounghly 12 weeks, and i have also had the blood test to check our down syndrome risk. thankfully this came back low risk!

below is our little bean at around 12 weeks gestation!

Maternal

Maternal.

where do i start. well i suppose i should tell you what it is. maternal is an online forum i stumbled upod while i was on the wedding forum "wedding central".
maternal is a conception, birth and pregnancy forum!
http://forum.maternal.com.au/

the whole place is like a little community, there to help each other, have meet ups, and give support and advice! without it, i may of gone insane with questions.
i will be forever grateful there was a place like maternal around for me!

Dr Klomp

the 11th of december 2007 was the first time we met with Dr Andre Klomp. i had been pre warned that he had a strange sense of humour and that you either liked him or hated him!
lucky for me, i liked him.
he was hard to tell when he was joking and things but as the pregnancy went along, i got a feel for him a bit better. he didnt really explain things very well to me, and i always forgot to ask questions while in there, so for all the questions i had, i thank god for Maternal!!!

but all in all, Dr Klomp is a great OB and he knows what hes doing. if something was going wrong, he is definately the guy you want in there!

In The Beginning

around June or July of 2007, mike and i decided we would like to expand our family, by having a baby. so we started not being so careful and just let things go and see what happened.

the 8th of november, 2007 rolled around, i was at work (telemarketer at mercury blue), and i realised i hadnt yet gotten my period for that month and i was pretty sure i should of by now. i chatted to a work mate about it, and she agreed and convinced me to go buy a test, which we did in our lunch break!

i went home that night, and did the test once i got home. and guess what! IT WAS POSITIVE!!! we were having our baby! when mike got home that night, i showed him the test and he was shocked, and surprised. i remember him asking if i was sure we wanted it, to which i said YES!!!



he started to get a bit more excited as it slowly sunk in.
the next day i booked a doctors appointment for blood tests, which they didnt do, they had me do another urine test which again was positve. prescribed me folate and gave me a referral to see Dr Andre Klomp at the Mount Barker DSM Hospital.

went home that evening and told mike again, that yep, we are indeed definately pregnant, to which he was again shocked. but once again, he got used to the idea and became excited, so we decided to go see his parents, which we did.

we got to their place, and all sat in the lounge as usual. after a while, mike asked his mum if she would be available for some babysitting in july next year??? to which she said yes, and asked if it was for roxi??? to which mike said no.... she just kinda looked at us saying REALLY???? and as we looked at each other and nodded she and dad were full of congratulations and excitement!

i then called my parents, my mum first! i asked if she would prefer to be called 'nana' or 'grandma', to which she sarted crying and kinda screaming, going OMG, she was pretty excited! lol (she also settled on grandma, but liked G-ma, cos it was a more hip version of grandma!)
i then called my dad, who was also shocked and surprised but seemed excited! his girlfriend Jo was very excited!

and this is where it all started..... our little baby was on its way!!!